This was my first time trying/hearing a shattered value drawing. I wanted to try to make this an ode to mental health and really focus on shading as much as I could. I also wanted to challenge myself by making the girl as angry looking as I could. This drawing definitely helped me see where shading looks best, and get a more real understanding for how the face moves with emotions. I would always draw from memory unless I was drawing my favorite celebrity at the time, but while looking for models on google it really made me get a better understanding of the face folds. The journey of creating it was ups and downs. I definitely used too dark of a pencil which made it hard to erase. I would also go from moments where I thought that It was the best thing I've ever made and super realistic, but just a few moments later hating it wanting to put my head and pencil down. Overall, I stayed mostly positive while making this (ironically). Right after I finished it I felt on top of the world, but being my own worst critic I soon started to feel less so. Some of the proportions are off which I thought messed up the whole thing. Now looking back I think it adds to it. You kind of get a sense of an altered reality where things are falling a bit apart. The overarching thing I learned while making this is how the face can be stretched, and maneuvered.

For this project we had to do a contour line drawing using our hands in different positions. I was never really one to draw things other than faces because I always say them everywhere, so this was a new experience for me. I just want to make it look as realistic as I could. At first I didn't really realize that contour lines are different from just a shaded drawing, so I think I did more shading then what was expected. When I first started sketching this I was weary. Hands are notoriously difficult for me to draw. They are so easy to mess up, but after I had drawn a few I immediately rethought this fear of mine. When actually having the object in front of you, and not trying to draw from memory, it's a lot less scary. I really thought this piece was going to fall through and just look wonky but I was wrong. After making each had it became easier and easier. I really surprised myself with this work. I pushed through all the mental blocks and did what I knew and I ended up really liking it in the end. It definitely made me want to branch and draw different things that isn't the same face over and over. Well, that might be a lie.

This project was based around symmetry. I was inspired but "The Sun" by Edvard Munch with the protruding colorful lines. I knew my painting skill for faces was weary to say the least, but I still wanted to include it as much as I could. I also want to make up for a lack of paint by a rather realistic drawing. I think y drawing forte is faces so analyzing a bunch of different facial movement definitely left an imprint in my brain. I was on a little bit of a time crunch while making this so I really wanted to use my time wisely. As soon as I started I felt good. I finished the first eye and really surprised myself. I thought it looked semi-realistic which I was proud of. I was definitely hesitant while working on this. I set up a high standard with the eye and I was scared of messing up, but I persisted. In the end it came out wonderful. I really enjoy looking at my creation. I think it came together nicely, and I think the acrylic makes her pop.