Stephanie Beresh Education Timeline 1987-2022
Chapter 2- 1992/93
While my elementary years started out positive and fun, grade two was a difficult year for me in terms of education. My dad had begun his career as a long-haul truck driver and as our family was part of a small religious community, gossip around our church began to spiral out of control. That gossip made its way into my classroom. It was not the other students that noticed my dad had not been at church, but my teacher. At carpet time in front of the entire class he told me how he had “heard my parents were getting divorced.” After being humiliated by my teacher, I was upset and exclaimed that no they were not, that people made that up. My confidence and feelings of safety at school were broken. This began to show in my work and personality at school. As the years went on, comments on my report card were often about my messiness or lack of organizational skills. I began to doubt my relationship with teachers, that they did not actually care the way they said they did. This was my introduction into what type of teacher I do not want to be. I never want a child to feel humiliated or unsafe because of something that I have said. I do not want them to ever doubt that they matter.
Chapter 3- 1995/96
Grade five was a wonderful year for me regarding education. This was the first time since grade two that I felt my teacher cared about who I was as an individual. The teacher that I had that year made fantastic connections with his students. He kept us engaged with what we were learning and allowed us to complete projects in a way that showed our unique talents and abilities. Our project "All about poop" was an experiment in which we had to find out which form of manure was the better fertilizer for our gardens. My group created a board game related to our experiment and an educational video that highlighted our research. (Sadly- or maybe not, those were the days of VHS, and I no longer have a copy). Our teacher connected with us through humour and he would often bust out his ukulele and sing the lollipop song. He was the first real person that was not my mom to tell me that I would make a fantastic teacher one day! The way he allowed us to choose how we wanted to show what we had learned inspired me to want to do that in my future classroom. This was my first introduction to UDL, universal design learning, although, well ahead of its time as this was back in 1995. His approach to building relationships to inspire learning was something that I will take with me as I feel getting to know my students is as important as teaching them skills and knowledge.
(Gr. 5 class photo in background, I am the 2nd from the left bottom row)
Chapter 4- 1999/2000
Grade nine was an entirely different experience for me. Up until this point I had been in a private Christian school and my experience in the world was ridiculously small. I had my school bubble, my youth group bubble and that was about it. In grade nine I transferred to an inner-city public school. I was old enough to see the difference in the relationships between teachers and students. The number of students that went in and out of classrooms was many in comparison to the small amount of teachers. For the first time in my educational career, I saw students with different behaviors and intellectual differences. I was introduced to overcrowded classrooms and underfunded teachers. There were a few classes that stand out to me, I remember them being engaging and fun, but I do not remember much about the teachers. There was no personal connections. We were just existing. Grade nine was my first year in applications math, this class was a perfect example of a teacher who could care less if we knew what we were doing or not. A short lesson, a paper to fill out and then the TV on the rolling cart came in, and we watched much music for the remainder of that 45 min class. We learned nothing. This was the year I knew that I wanted to become the teacher that made that small difference in someone's life, even if for only a brief few months. Building relationships with your students can not only encourage them to do their best, but it also helps them recognize that they are worth the effort of being in that class. That they are important and this will help build their confidence.
Chapter 5- 2000/2001
In my previous years, very minimal, if any relationships were built with teachers. However in grade 10 I had an amazing English teacher that really connected with us through our interests. He knew my friend and I loved music and the cult classic film of 1996- Romeo and Juliet. As we were studied William Shakespeare, he allowed us to use music from the film in our poetry project make it more personal. This was the year I began writing poerty as a way to escape. After the loss of my friend I often struggled to find motivation to complete projects. This teacher was able to find a crack in my darkness and encouraged me to find light through words. I had always loved reading, and now he was challenging me to put words and thoughts on to paper. This was a significant year for me as I was working through a lot of trauma, The year 2000 I had lost 6 friends, three in a car accident, 2 to suicide and the death of one of my best friends from a heroin overdose. I did not care about school. It did not make sense to me, if life was cut short for so many, why was I there, what was the reason. My English teacher taught me that year that even through all the pain, I was still here, and I was still worth it. He inspired my writing and to keep fighting. He got me laughing again. Such little things at that time, that now as an adult I recognize to be big things when you are a teacher. I want to be that inspiration for a student, I want to be that safe place where they feel safe enough to try and try again until they succeed. I want to be that place of encouragement. I want to be a teacher who pushes students enough that they learn just how capable they really are.
(In grade ten I also experienced my working in a daycare center as a part of my work experience. Although that was a fun experience, I was reminded that I want to be in a school setting and not changing diapers.)
Chapter 6- 2002/03
Once again I switched schools. Leaving the inner-city school to an upper middle class, predominantly white high school. The experience at this school was a lot more like it was in the Christian school. A lot of cliques and people thinking their social status was the most important thing. In this school, the teachers appeared to have more care for their students and really encouraged academics and after-school sports. It was an Art inspired high school, named after the artist Robert Bateman so there was a lot of emphasis on encouraging artistic talents. In regards to education, this year didn't stand out with great teachers or outstanding achievements. This year was a celebration of self. That I had overcome every educational obstacle; that I had shown through hard work and dedication, I could finally graduate and be one step closer to my dream. This was the year I found my voice, and started to challenge dress code and question why it was only relevant to some students and not others, it was the year I found my best friend, my ride or die. I received a bursary towards my educational goals. This was the year I was determined to go to university and start my journey to be a teacher.
Chapter 7- 2014- present
As life would have it , a lot changed between high school graduation and where I am today. I got married and had children, so my educational goals got put on hold. Then my littles started their careers in school. My children began elementary school in 2014 and 2016. This was my first experience seeing the educational system as a parent. The start of the year for my daughter's kindergarten was the teacher strike. While I sympathized with the teacher, not really understanding the hardship they were experiencing, I was frustrated for my daughter and her delay to starting this new journey. I found myself getting irritated that she was missing out on so much. I had to often remind myself that I know nothing of their situations, so I began to research. I started to understand and support why they needed to make the government listen. Moving to Kamloops from the busy coast, it began to be apparent that the funding for the schools was not as high as the coast, with social clubs, and music classes being cut from my children's school, this was when I learned how hard the teachers were working, and how understaffed the schools actually were.
With one EA for every 4 classrooms, I was in awe of how many of these teachers were able to keep their composure and yet, was worried for the children who were being left behind. It was during my children's school years I learned that children were no longer being held back but pushed forward whether they were ready or not. I was saddened for what I had seen while helping in my daughter's class on a field trip. she was in grade two, and one of her fellow peers was in our group. While we explored the zoo, it became very obvious that the young child did not know how to read. This made me sad, as I knew it meant he was not getting the attention nor the help he so desperately needed in class. There were just too many kids, and not enough staff. He was getting forgotten about. This field trip happened the same year I was completing my Educational Assistant and Community Support Certificate. It made me recognize how desperately students need support to succeed, and how it is in the best interest of all students that there be an EA in every classroom. That far too many children are being left behind. It has reminded me to check in with students, meet them where they are and help them find the tools needed to succeed. I also think that advocating for an EA to work within the classroom is important. This way there's a higher probability of success for the students that struggle.
Chapter 8- 2014-present
I began girl guides in 2014, I joined with my daughter as her unit needed leaders. This was my first real taste of leading a group of children. I had 19, 5/6year olds that needed me to plan a meeting and run that meeting each week. Often this included a small lesson and a craft. As the years went on, the groups progressively got smaller as the girls got older. However, I enjoyed planning the meetings and taking the time to work with each guide as they learned and acquired new skills. This was an important step on my path to a career in education as I was reminded that I needed to be in schools, making a difference with kids and needed to teach. Each of these girls needed to feel important and that they were worth being heard. This is important in education also, as it builds confidence. Kids need to be heard and validated, than there is nothing stopping them from succeeding and being proud of their achievements.
Chapter 9- 2017-2022
In 2016 as my youngest started kindergarten I went back to university. It was time I started my journey in education. With limited funds, it was decided that I would start by getting my educational assistant certificate. I was employed October 2017 after graduating from the EACS program at TRU. I was first placed in gr. 9 and then finished that first year in kindergarten. I stayed in the kindergarten classroom for three of my five years at Kamloops Christian School. I worked closely with the teacher to build upon her dream of an outdoor educational program. It started as a once a week 'Wonder Walk' in the afternoons and built into an everyday outdoor education program, no matter the weather learning was happening outside. This was an amazing time of learning and exploring with the greatest team! This was one of the most important times in my educational timeline as this was the final push I really needed to get back to school and complete my Bachelor of Education. The teacher that I worked with everyday, gave me many opportunities to lead the class in activities and lessons, she knew, right away that I was not meant to be an EA, that I was meant to lead the classroom as a teacher. Thanks to her wonderful encouragement, I got the final push I needed to go back to school. Through her mentorship I realized how important it is to take kids outside for learning and how learning can happen in any weather! This is something that I want to implement in my teaching career. I find getting children out in nature opens an entirely new door of education, and in some cases, it comes more naturally to the kids as they don't have the same limitations that you often see in a classroom. Many of the behaviours we saw inside the classroom were nearly non existent outside as the children had a new perspective to learning.
PS- That's my photograph on the side of the trailer!!
Chapter 10- 2020-2021
Before being accepted into the BEd program, I spent some time working in a grade one classroom. These were the same students from my previous kindergarten year. It was decided that since I was with them during the hardships of covid online learning, it would be an easier transition for the students if I followed them up. I was sad to leave kindergarten but I knew these kiddos needed the support. I want to take a moment to talk about one of the students, my friend Niki. He had recently came to our school after Christmas break in kindergarten. He struggled being away from his family and was not interested in schoolwork. Outside he thrived. He loved learning outside. Then covid hit, which was a whole teaching/EA’ing experience in itself, but he loved our twice a week, one on one meetings. We would read a story together and then he would show me his newest toy before we worked on sight words. When grade one started that following September, so did many negative behaviors. He would get angry and throw his agenda, he would scream in class and refuse to work. I often had hard days where I'd want to go home and cry. I needed to get through to him and was struggling to find a way. As the EA, it was me who would be asked to take Niki out of the class. During this time we would often go on small walks through the hallways. It was on these walks he felt safe enough to talk about what was going on in his mind, and how he was feeling. This is where I would learn what was preventing him from focusing on his work. Whether he was worried about his dad being upset with him, missing his mom, or really not wanting to participate in the activity. I discovered that the biggest indicator of why he could not focus on his work, was that he would be having major heart surgery in the upcoming month and felt he was not going to make it through that surgery. With no progress in class his teacher requested to the parents that she would like to hold him back as she felt he would succeed being in a younger class, this upset them. They removed him from our class and from the school. Oct 31, 2020, was the last day I saw him, the last time we went for a calm down walk, the last time I heard his little feet shuffle on the floor, the last time I heard “I'm going to miss you Mrs. Beresh” at the end of the day, and the last hug he gave, because On Nov 25, 2020, Niki died during his heart surgery, just as he said he would.
Niki became one of my biggest why's. I wanted to be a teacher, and I was going to be a better teacher because of all he taught me. He taught me to listen, listen fully; that these little things he was sharing were really big things to him, and those big things were really important. He taught me patience and understanding, that even such a young child can carry such big burdens on his shoulders and without knowing how, emotions often come out as actions. Niki taught me love, that not all students feel that at home, and will seek it at school in their relationships with their teachers. He taught me how I want to be as a teacher. I want to teach with compassion and kindness. I want to teach wholly and intentionally. I want the students in my class to know they are important and loved and that they are worth the world. Niki forever changed how I work with students, and he changed how I will forever look at world. Because of my friend Niki, I know there is more to teaching than just your ABC's.
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